GREAT NEWS!
my lappy is BACK!
at first it was giving me probs when i was back home.
the wireless wasn't working again.
and since the technicians told me that they fixed my WLAN hardware,
i figured it would be my software prob.
tried to figure it out myself somehow.
and yea, it's working fine now,
hopefully it works fine during sch hours,
and for longer.
my screen is also fixed.
whats more, they changed my screen.
now it looks as good as new.
but only the screen -.-
hahas!

actually i'm here to make a post on the LAST DAY OF 2009!
what a year with pretty much downs,
but of course, there are ups too.
downs would most probably caused by myself.
and ups are of course, due to peeps ard me.
BIG THANKS TO YOU GUYS.

yea, i've ended my work ytd.
ended meaning i no longer working at ebis.
nothing really memorable there, sadly,
but still, it was quite a good experience working there.

didn't sleep last night and its now 8.09am
went to market to help dad at 6 just now
and ate my all time fave breakfast.
helped till mum came down.
and yea, here i am, blogging.

while walking home i was looking at the sky,
such a beautiful scene.
feeling a sense of "an wei", and very very calm feeling.
duno why,
kinda happy with what i'm having in my life now.
if only things come and doesn't go.
but that'll just like unbalancing the equilibrium.
and i'm a person that believes pretty much on equilibrium makes up our world.
so i'm contradicting myself again.
hahas!

so many things to look forward to on the first week of 2010~!
lets start with today.
afternoon will be meeting some peeps,
ESPECIALLY JIEJIE & NUER!
long long time never see them le. =/
should be watching movie i guess?
den would be dinner and more peeps would be joining us.
countdown later on?
and after countdown i guess we'll head for some clubs or bars?
maybe, maybe not.

as for next week.
monday would be the start of sch.
and parents won't be home for like 3 days?
they'll only be home on weds night.
tues will be having UT2 for duno wad module.
weds after sch will have driving lesson.
thurs morning will have my driving lesson + TP already!
thurs afternoon will be some "student helper" thingy back in sch.
i guess i'll be late or wad lor,
cuz i'll be taking my TP in the morning!
but anw, the student helper @ RP thingy is thurs till sat,
hopefully the faci-in-charge accept my late-ness.
yea, next week will be a busy week.
and hope i really can pass my TP! ><" really, i don't have much confidence. but if i'm lack of confidence in myself, then i'd have lost the battle even way before the battle starts! -pump oil into myself- lols. alright guys. thats all for updates. ja. =) HAVE A GOOD 2010 UP AHEAD!!
CHEERS!

[03'Sheepy]

12/31/2009

wanted to get myself to sleep,
just run away for the time being,
but just why can't i?
covered myself under my blanket,
many things starts 'floating' around my mind.
how amazing.

just recalling the days i used to be in.
the one that i had no worries,
goes to sch happily everyday,
disturbing peeps,
enjoying every single moment spent with "brothers".
aren't the days just so memorable and enjoyable?
今日真的不同往日.
how much would you guys agree with me?

used to have the mindset that "i want to make everyone around me happy!"
no matter how much pain and torture it'll take,
i want to make them laugh,
even if it means to make myself cry.
but now this seems to be far away.
i think i've made someone even more worried,
even more sad,
even more irritated,
even more frustrated.
even more... ... ...

i thot i've overcome the obstacle,
i just thot i was able to accepted the truth,
but now, seems like nothing have been pretty much done.
nothing seems to change in me.
wads so wrong?
the ache seems to be there yet i can't drop a tear to express how i feel.
i've came to feel that i've lost my emotions.
words became my next way of expression.
my face would just be the same.

-----
我只是卑微的小丑
翻几个跟斗
就等你拍一拍手
人群散了后
夜色多朦胧
月光也会跟著我

我不是孤独的小丑
你笑了之后
不需要记得我。
灯熄的时候
满天的星空
最明亮的是寂寞
-----

i think i shouldn't be saying much too.
it'll only hurt someone even greater?
making ppl hate me even more,
seems like so.
it might only make her feels bad,
and starts to blame it upon herself.
that isn't the outcome i wanted either,
go on with ur happy life.
you have my blessing.
i promise, nothing will be done to me.
i swear.
一笑而过 is what i do best.
just don't you worry about me.
thinks i'm acting a lil big here thinking that ppl will just worry abt me.
hah?

不要感到内疚
不要感觉失败
并不是妳的错
请别说对不起
回忆是多余的
只怪自己心甘情愿
还一直找不到解脱
应该是我说声抱歉
因为我无法忘了妳

life sucks pretty much at this point.
ja.

[03'Sheepy]

12/28/2009

did anyone of you ever had news that u wanted to hear,
for quite a long time,
yet just when you heard of it,
you had a different feeling.
no matter how much mental preparation you had previously,
when the news came,
it was a totally different feeling as u predicted it would be.
it ached like never before.

i wonder whats wrong with me anw,
thinking too much about things again.
maybe like they've put it.
high hopes will lead you to greater disappointment.
how great is that?

i just can't accept it.

12/27/2009

still can't get my sleep,
and have been reading up many's blog.
and they are thanking here and there
cuz its year end !!
should i be doing it then, too?

alright then, here goes nothing.
-----

-the one that would always be on the top list would always be this person.
i guess everyone that've been reading my blog would know.
AHCAII!
yea, this ass. knows the other side of me.
and most of my stuffs too.
thanks dude for having those supper times.
and walking around AMK like in the middle of the night,
sharing different perceptions over different thing,
including life, family and of course, girls.

-second on the list is... ... ... ... ... ... ...
SEINA NUER!!
this banana nuer of mine, always got the blur face.
and ALWAYS MAKE ME WORRY!
go ppl's hse ton ah, den keep complaining abt parents oso.
"dad" here is already feeling bad for not being able to do anything.
yet even those these stuffs always happens,
i believe she knows whats to do, and whats not to.
apart from all these, she'll always put a smile on my face.
cuz she is my silly nuer and i will never get angry over her. =)
thanks nuer <3


-SUEANN SWEET HEART JIEJIEJIEJIEJIEJIEJIEJIEJIEJIE!!!!!
we haven't been in touched lately.
she must be very busy with work.
hais, hope she is fine alright.
thanks jiejie for all the time worrying over me.
and like she says, "i'll always be praying for you"
tho i don't believe in such stuffs, but thank you for the effort <3
meet up soon okay? =D

-not forgetting my very noob and very very very lousy DISCIPLE, SHAN!
ah yes, hope u had a great time in SG.
and well, why do i have to thank u? =.=
for all the nights that u're bored and webcam me?
U OUGHT TO BE THANKING ME HOR!! >:3
really, i can't think of anything else =.=
orhh! got, u teach me malay words, those noob noob one.
especially TNB! dun ever think i'll forget this =.=

-THANKS TERRORPINZ!!
daren, keith, yeow wei, weileong, melvan, eugene,
joey, wei liang, wei hao, jesper, geraldine, joe, zhan yu,
gladys, marina, khairi, azizi, shamala, suma, esther, li shi yun.
aiya, instead of name, i'll say ALL LA!
anyway, the few that i named are those that kinda appeared
in the events that was held for our class,
or rather, somehow i met them recently or wad. lols.
-TERRORPINZ BBQ
-TERRORPINZ BBQ @ WEI LEONG'S PLACE
-SUPER IMPORTS NIGHT + RANDOM STUFFS THAT HAPPENED.
=D thanks you guys man.
the ones thats always with those silly jokes
and made the whole class laughed none stop.
and the jokes can go on and on like FOREVER!
eh daren! i don't really play maple liao lor!
is go in chat nia! like a high class msn which u can jump ard! hahas!

-thanks NMCKES!
-thanks AHMA! for all the random laughings. and being NMCKES! de tao!
-thanks NEHNEH! for understanding my craps.
-thanks AHGONG! for saying i'm always noisy, i promise i try to lower down!
-thanks AHUM! for now, being the shortest amongst us.
=D

-thanks maplers like... ... ...
zua, gene, jen, dom, shermaine aunty, mum, dre,
josh, xiao bai, pornovan, JY, NING(MSN!)
AHYII! ANDREW GHEY BRO! essy, and many many more la!!!
listening to my craps, and teaching me many things.
learning more about life, people, society and politics.
happiness and sorrows are shared too.
YOU GUYS ARE GREAT!
thanks so much for the year.

-thanks peeps in RP!
getting on with classes in a fun way.
with ppl like roger and ming yuan to make the class funny.
like how rachael likes to suan roger =D
and audrey always being straight forward.
not forgetting yr2 sem1 > jasper, junwei, SP, randal.
with these jokers ard, classes are of course more fun.
wun be getting thru all these shits w/o them.
1yr and 4months to go, and we'll be on another different path.
GUYS! ENJOY!

-of course, i wanna thank K too.
going after you sure have made me grown.
looking back now seems a bit silly,
yet i have no regrets spending
-those days messaging you,
-the many hours thinking of you,
-every single minutes (even those very little ones) talking to you.
-the slightest seconds cherishing every moment we can spend together.
all these might just sounds stupid,
but i really think she've made me grown to be a more sensible person.
no longer with those foolish acts.
maybe by the nxt time i look back,
i'll really think that i'm dam stupid like what ming yuan have told me.
but still THANK YOU! ^^
-----

wahh, so late le,
and i still can't sleep =.=
alright alright, i better go try and slp.
... ... ... nights.
ja.

[03'Sheepy]

12/24/2009

ought to be slping now,
yet i juz don't get why i can't.
since i have a long night to go,
i'll see how much i can post about work then.

actually there is nothing much and i don't wanna name them =.=
so frankly speaking,
i had pretty much fun at work.
but of course, there are some small and minor things
that just made my evening screwed up a little.

when i first started work,
everyone thot i was from china =.=
LIKE HELLO???? CHEENA BOI????? _|_
everyone wasn't really happy with me
cuz i was new there and knows nothing abt F&B.
still, i learn slowly.
knew all the table numbers in a few days.
and roughly can name and describe the desert/drinks menu already.
when it came to the first weekend of my work.
everything turns out fine,
and i guess from then on,
most of them had a different impression already.

colleagues are well, more or less fun to work with.
with a certain fact that i HATE being called YANGYANG!
sec sch classmates would definitely know why.
i nid not say more.
that was another reason why i chose to be called MELVIN since poly.
at work was the same thing.
everyone called me MELVIN except this special guy, or NOT,
chose to call me by my chinese name.
it isn't much of a big deal to be calling me either SY, or just yang.
but by repeating the last name of mine and calling in a funny manner?
u're actually trying to test my patience.
so whenever i got called by this person, i replied in a quick and harsh tone,
it'll either be "what!?" or "xia mi!?"
yea, with the exclamation mark.
oh, and which part of me, or my face,
SAYS "TO HELL I'M ALRIGHT WITH GUYS TRYING TO GHEY ME!?"
so keep the distance alright?
even tho i'm always smiling and joking away.
-.-

so ya, thats more or less abt work.
fun yet horrible sometimes de colleagues.
other than that ghey =.=
who is actually nice but just STOP GHEYING ME.
everyone else is pretty fun to work with.
somehow, i'm being taken care of.

alright then.
till here, will update more asap. =)
have a long day tml.
ja.

[03'Sheepy]

12/24/2009